Life from Thursday to Thursday

I have begun to live my life from Thursday to Thursday.  I feel like Thursdays are usually my day of preparation.  The time given to me to equip myself with all the armor Paul talked about.  Thursday mornings I attend an LDS 12 step program for guys addicted to porn and sex.  I have to admit that it has been a long time since I attended the 12 step program.  It is at 6am...some times I don't mean to sleep in and other times I do.  But the idea is that I would like to attend the 12 step program every Thursday morning at 6. 

Thursday evenings I attend an Evergreen meeting for LDS men that are dealing with same sex attraction.  I love the meetings.  We chat about our lives and the facilitator reminds us to talk about our feelings...yea...

What I love is the friendship that I have with those men.  They are so good and faithful.  We all have our struggles there, but we are all proactively working on them.  I admire most of the men  in our group for their faith and courage.

I live Thursday to Thursday because I have a huge amount of time spent  with men that are in the same position as myself.  I feel accepted and loved.  I feel motivated and happy.  I feel like I have what it takes to win the battle in which I find myself.  Thank you to those men for changing and living the Gospel. 

This week I am coming off of one of the worst relapses I have ever had (because it was the first)  I am working on staying motivated and driven.  These feelings of motivation are quick to leave in my life; I need to learn how to keep them coming all week.